pretty tired today actually i think i have spring allergies, i love that pink skirt, its difficult to style tho bc its such a statement piece, i love that it's not red or blue, but like just bright pink, herve leger -- it was not cheap i remember i got it bc i was bored when i was at sampled haha

going to sleep, lots of things to do this week on this server & models to run

will upload closer to midnight, busy, ppl are over

pics later, out to dinnerr, ok gimmie like 20 mins

i gotta sleep more tomorrow afternoon

my face broke out after my bros wedding earlier this month -- nothing of concern, happens etc. not a big deal, not a common thing for me but happens once in awhile.

those BCBGMAXAZRIA skirts, here's my story about them. ok so i had a couple of them, and then when i started at sampled, i had to be on-site a couple days a week then i could be remote the rest of the week for the first couple of months. soo, thats pretty high level position @ that company so i couldnt wear like w/e & its industry, but i also had to sit for 8 hrs and do bioinformatics/programming/zoom meetings & like i needed to be comfortable too & i/we had eyes on us from other teams / other high level ppl bc everyone knew how important the bioinfo team was. right?? everything that was going on in the company was cc'd to our team like all the time. interesting problem to solve. so anyway, i had those skirts, they're made out of a thick stretch nylon, no zipper, i use to wear those sometimes and i was comfortable for 8 hrs sitting etc. to this day, i collect them. not the pattens but the solid colors. the black one i have i use to wear it often with leggings, bc otherwise, on my remote days, i would work from my bed lol bahahahaahaa, there were a lot of long-time ex-merck and ex-bms ppl there and etc. bc nj has the most amount of pharmaceutical companies than any other state. u couldnt look like sht bc u represent someone who is handling clinical sequencing samples etc. we had a whole tutorial they would do every yr or every 6 months, like the correct way to write in official docs was to use a black pen and strike out ur mistake with one line etc. things like that. i dunno whats this concept called, where u put a lot of thought in to something @ the start, so u dont have to put almost any thought in to it later, i collect those skirts every so often to this day.

atleast once i was the lead on changing clinical legacy code, i dont remember if it was sequencing or microarray, but i changed it, it was python i remember, but that's just the first step. then i had to go onsite and print out this change - code document (like 10+ pages) with screenshots of the before & after the changes of my code and how it effected the output, write in with black pen, the summary, and then get it signed by this non-bioinfo but important person who was watching me lol, i had to go back and forth many times to their office bc i had to write more info etc or i needed more screenshots, like the whole day was spent doing that. but thats the thing. u cant be some weak dweeb programmer on the side in a lab, which is what my undergrad research advisor use to drill in my head, like u need to interact with ppl/present urself well and with confidence too. also anyone who thinks u can vibe code in bioinformatics has no idea what theyre talking about. thats right, once my mom, i think it was 3rd yr, caught me going to class @ rutgers once, in something she didnt like, and she said something i still remember to this day, she said "you can do all that computer science stuff, that's fine, it's great, but you can't dress like those people, u cant look like a geek" theres so much wisdom behind that, as ive gotten older, i think that stereotype of a programmer dressing in like walmart plaid shirts etc, with no presentation/social skills, spends too much time on reddit/video games etc, that kind of a person in a lab/company, i think that is someone who is resentful easily of other ppl's success, i think that. i remember once in undergrad in lab, in that algae lab, the PI once jokingly/politely pointed out that, maybe, just maybe, its not the best idea for me, someone who was writing serious R/Bioconductor code, working on sequencing data and it was suppose to all be part of a paper, that maybe, just maybe, i should not wear bright pink sweatpants to lab that said "victoria's secret" ROTFL i did that a few times before it was pointed out to me hahahaha

ohh herf derf, this hobby of mine, the only thing i do, spend time on reddit and play video games nonstop after work, ohhh i wonder why ppl at work dont think im interesting or like me or why im not doing better than other ppl (including women) -- yeah, i dunno get better hobbies (like read non-fiction) and fking present urself well & have social skills, like r u going to learn how to do that while being in ur basement and reading/posting on reddit all day or playing video games. i cant stand that sht & i stay away from those kinds of ppl at work. they get resentful very quickly, their thing is "im putting in the same number of hrs as this other person, and im not better than them" yeah well, get better hobbies. thats on you, not on me. my other pet peeve is someone (esp at work) who is like a "foodie" like sht the fk up, that's not a real hobby, that's not a flex. there are plenty of tiktoks ppl have made where essentially they're saying, there are ppl @ work, where from the hours of 9 am - 5 pm (etc), they're "somebody" and then after 5 pm, they log off, and they're losers, and those ppl can be really dangerous.

i profile ppl while driving bc my dad said, when he was teaching me to drive in hs, that ~ "whenever u see someone in front of you driving like a little crazy, change ur lanes and pass that person, its not worth it to take a risk" right? like recognize ur safety could be at risk and get out of that situation asap. i profile ppl at work, like LOL once this person (bioinfo/comp bio) who was giving recs to someone else about restaurants in nyc (bc they lived in nyc), eventually TURNED THEIR BACK towards me (bc they were sitting next to me), bc i had nyc restaurant recs for that person too. its not rocket science to be a "foodie" LOL get a better hobby hahaha