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hmm-the-cs-phd-program-does-have-a-specialization-for-artificial-intelligence
i have no papers in cs
but
i can take calc 4 in the fall next why not but is that still enough i dunno
im really tired i have to sleep i cannot think at all
what would be the maximum amount of like STING u know: retinas tattoo'd with an phd interview invite u know, MAX LEVEL STING ingrained in brains forever, u know what i mean, omg HASHTAG DIET level of STING ROTFL, it would be this i think, the phd degree jason never got (cs) (i think the cs program is like top 5) with the specialization he doesnt really have u know, can i pull this off i dunno lemme think about it
also applying to this program, with that specific specialization of AI
OMG that would be EPIC right??
maybe & let's see, lemme think about it i cannot rn bc tired
im waiting for claude to make my study plan for the week i dunno whats taking so long
this app (specialization of AI) would be like, jason would just dissipate and disintegrate immediately, lemme think about this
im so tired i cant understand a single word on this cs phd website all these words make no sense to me I HAVE TO SLEEPP
im so tired if i had to drive somewhere i would not be able to im that tired, i cant think nothing
claude was saying i can submit a preprint to arXiv, with only myself as the author + now i know some math, will i have enough time
u know the most helpful quote ive heard in the past yr, "closed mouths dont get fed" -> u have to ask for help bc someone cant read ur mind, so i can ask my bros thesis advisor to look over something and we can submit it to arXiv, hes retired, so ok, final exam first and then, lemme think of something
why doesnt the CBM phd program have a specialization for artificial-intelligence, dont some other phd programs do that, u have to take like 4 extra classes from the cs dept something like that, u guys should do it OUT OF SPITE LOL
yeah ok lemme do that, i can get my bros thesis advisor as my "advisor" for a preprint in something that is math+cs applied to some public genomic data (which he doesnt know about) thats available, but he can write a better LOR, and its pretty badass to submit a preprint with only my name (well i guess his too why not), then ill have a paper for this yr and itll be math+cs
the problem with my bros thesis advisor, is that, hes very smart, like he did his cs phd at harvard decades ago, BUT hes into some armchair psychology things, i really dont like that, thats why i avoid him a lot, i need to learn to handle that sht better if he brings it up on zoom etc. hes otherwise a great resource, ok studying time!
theres a certain amount of PRIDE one has when they're on a paper/preprint with their co-founders and the company u founded with them is on the paper -- i dont want to ruin that eventual moment, so i will aim to be on the preprint/patent representing myself only -- there's a finesse and elegance to doing this, theres other strategy im not discussing that involves myself being the author, not representing nomial just yet.
this person on tiktok, i saved it but i dunno where it is and ill just summarize it, she said, that the difference between men and women when to comes strategy, men tend to do darker things, strategically, that women would not do -- its easier for them to do amoral things for the sake of strategy, i was like yeah, i can see that being true, like i would not do sht like that but a man would in the world of strategy, i see that while driving too, then i realized, since that's true, they need religion/morals/guardrails way more than us. u guys need something to do, like go on top of a mountain in tibet and fking talk to no one for a month and meditate and sht and figure ur lives out. thats ur weakness that its easier for u to cross lines that end up hurting everyone that is rooted in ego, arrogance and selfishness -> im all those things too, i have my ego, arrogance and selfishness, and i think im a great strategist, ive thought that about myself since hs, but i dont do dark/evil things, i can recognize the lines that, if i cross them, i lose, everyone else loses, u guys dont do that unless ure taught. and thats why u have to be TAUGHT, i think enforcement isnt enough bc u find back channels to break the rules, TAUGHT morals, bc its ur weakness by ur nature.
theres a pt 2 to this but im busy. i started noticing this in hs, u guys are NATURALLY evil, and u need morals to remind u that its ur weakness, u need SOMETHING to keep u occupied, planning crazy sht all the time by DEFAULT.
like go to umrah for a week or a month by urself, theres young ppl who do this, like figure ur life out, like who u are, ur weaknesses, what u want out of life, where its headed for u, like pause everything and go sit there and contemplate ur life and ur purpose in life, bc ure so capable of so much evil, when i was at mskcc, during the on-site, i was there and i was happy, but i was QUIET bc i was like, wait, im here, I MADE IT HERE, in the joy building, but why am i not across the street where u are, WHAT HAPPENED, WHAT HAPPENED in 2017 and i was like, i have to FIGURE THIS OUT no matter what.
i have to study, i dont really like brad pitt, my mom is also not a fan, but when he was younger when u watch his movies, but this holds true for also like robert de niro, denzel washington, i would add edward norton too etc. (im talking about like male actors) but when u watch them acting, what makes them GREAT, really good at what they're doing, is that they know EXACTLY who they are imo, dave chappelle knows EXACTLY who he is