U-can-tell-BOLIVIA-that-i-am-taking-calc-3-this-summer-for-credit--its-online-but-exams-in-person
#mood for the rest of the year
the goal (the bigger goal) is to eventually (after doing the chapter/section problems), do those hard abstract-ish think outside of the box connect a lot of things together depth & breadth type problems -> dont get comfortable with the ones just checking one concept at a time -- type problems, the goal is to solve the multiple concepts in one problem type of problems i dunno how to describe them -- they're just difficult
im not checking ANYTHING & ure wasting tokens for no reasons
- once i set up the SSO (single sign-on via authelia) (it saying its going to take 2 hrs, fable u overachieving btch) -> all the bot crawl dashboards are going to be gated and behind like a non-solvable sudoku puzzle and even then, i cant see bc I DO NOT CARE, this is useless info
- i only get a notification if there is an anomaly
no yapping from me when my timer to study is on
i just woke up after my bros wedding earlier this month and decided, u know, lets do it, lets take calc 3 over the summer
make dua for me, i want a really good grade
i took out like 6 calc books from the public library to review etc.
8 weeks of class & studying, inshaAllah i will get a good grade
its just a huge secret
im just obsessed, i want to know more math
in the end, i can read papers about backpropagation, im so excited
i was telling my brother and SIL, like u owe it to urself in ur life to attack and work on ur insecurities, whatever they are, that are holding u back from ur best self, then we went to a comedy show and somebody asked a question about aliens from the audience and im like WTF ppl are so dumb, im def registering for that class so i did
im busy this week ttyl just on vacation leaving in a few hrs
me to myself a couple of days ago "ehhhh u know what there's a small chance, like 1% chance i wont be able to log in to my student account if im out of the country, prolly not gonna happen" -> literally 100% thats what happened, i asked my brother if he has a pc i can remote in to & he does but vpn from buffalo worked :|
"HW=30%, Quizzes=10% Exams=60%""; no quiz/exam this week, 1st hw is due 7/6 @ midnight & i cant see it yet its not open but i'll just feed the syllabus into claude and do things with it
i have to email the help desk apparently and tell them im out of the country so they can allow me to log into canvas for a week, OK I WILL DO THAT -_-
yo claude/chatgpt are like calc 3 office hours 24/7, unbiased, UNBIASED, no question is too small or too big, i want to learn how to plot things in 3D in jupyter or julia w/e for my own knowledge
apparently i can incorporate notebooklm into things via claude into my server and then i read something where when u upload ur notes, theres a way to make claude summarize them etc, i dunno, i just need to do problems
my brother gave me a umd windows pc to remote into :))
ok first week is medium-difficult-ish but do-able, dot & cross products, stuff from linear algebra i have (or get to) to review, i thought we would start at double integrals but not yet. the textbook uses examples from physics which is good i like physics.
calc 3, even tho the first week is linear algebra-ish review, its like the text/words in the book -> my immediate imagination i dunno, once its there then it makes sense, but i can keep asking claude to explain it to be simplier so i dont have to memorize really i dunno, rn i feel like my frustration/embarrassment is like, holy sht i forgot some of this stuff but its like duh, i havent taken linear algebra since 2012, maybe i should make voice notes too for myself
claude: "is just the boring edge case" me: EXACTLY!! lol
claude: "The textbook actually calls this out directly on page xx — it warns you to distinguish ## from ##, because they look almost identical but mean different things." its so crazy it can do this. ok i have to study then we're going out to dinner
i have to keep saying this, for myself, but like if ure insecure about anything, like u have to attack it and overcome it, its not worth it bc theres so much on the other side. ive worked with ppl with adv degrees who have like poor programming skills and they cant help themselves and its like, u can fix that and be better. not worth it to not be ur best if u can.
i love that the examples in this book are from physics. the order of things i love/i get: 1. physics 2. chemistry ... later on lol biology, i dunno, it just is like that. u immediately know how much physics someone has taken based on how they drive, ive been judging ppl since hs about this lol, physics is the most useful STEM class from hs/undergrad imo. like oh you're tailing me during an absolute downpour at night, and ure a man, ure an idiot who has never taken physics, happens, use to happen when i use to drive to my apt at night in philly, its like, ure really dumb for doing this
"its just a dumb MAN who has never taken physics" - me to myself since hs when im driving, when i took drivers education in hs, the teacher said they're like that bc they have daddy issues. "its all psychology" - marc andreessen (like what 2 yrs ago) everyday i think about this.
its not just when they're DRIVING, when i was in bethesda, oh man, it's when they're on a bicycle too, they would ride their bicycle in the center of the lane and not move to the side when i was behind them. putting these men on bicycles doesnt solve the issue either, theyre still annoying. ok bye.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sal_Khan this guy is an amazing person for what he started, but it didnt exist (yet) when i was taking my undergrad classes (and i didnt really go to office hrs), i havent used it for calc 3 yet but i will next week when its more intense stuff
ok going to dinner soon then gotta finish the section
https://lelouch.dev/blog/august-2024/documenting-your-grind/ ok interesting
the times i have gotten an A in a class its bc i was just obsessed with the class and i could move past any setbacks etc etc
julia im going to learn more of (on my own):
u know how ppl use julia, they have legacy R code right sitting around for yrs thats slow, they use AI to translate it to julia so then its modern, faster & uses less memory
- i have to track my coffee consumption throughout the day on my study dashboard
https://community.obsidian.md/search?type=plugin some interesting ideas from here too, https://raindrop.io/ what is this can i self-host it on my server, will look into it later busy now
- i have to migrate herlog to its own server and install https://github.com/tryghost/ghost on it and copy my existing posts on there with the timestamps, bc rn its on ghost's server, i believe it renews the subscription in september, i think its like $99/yr, but thats going to be fun, hacking ghost a little bit esp the theme im not a huge fan of, but "if it aint broke dont fix it"
- this week: setting up a SSO (single sign on) with microsoft authenticator for all of my subdomains/dashboards etc, looking @ https://www.authelia.com/ -- doing this, this week, it says it'll take an 1-2 hrs to set up, im soooo busy with hw this week.
- claude says we can set this up: "Explain-it-back (Feynman active recall): Record yourself explaining a concept out loud → Whisper transcribes → Claude/Qwen grades it against the textbook and flags misconceptions. One of the best ways to actually learn; Speaking > re-reading." cool ok so we will
im so busy this week, i have so much to do
when im busy im super creative LOL i gotta get back to studying
i am some percentage coffee ☕️ im trying to have a day off from studying for the next week, but i dont think its possible, i think this is just it, this is life from now on, this is my entire summer, studying and getting sugar-free PEACH ice tea from wawa, thats it
what if i create a mini adventure game, like zelda, RPG, where u can move through the map with bot crawls, up/down/left/right, ok studying but lemme think about this for the week. u know studying is boring hahaaha
i emailed the prof about something, so now MISS CONTROL FREAK (ME) has to wait for a response, i guess it will be tomorrow morning
i didnt see this until earlier today but it is recommended that we also go through this course: https://ocw.mit.edu/courses/18-02-multivariable-calculus-fall-2007/ and i will why not
how i use to study in hs/early undergrad was that i would just memorize things and not really do the problems, and there are classes where that works fine, art history, no problem, memorize everything thats ok, got an A. however, the other classes, like i needed to do the problems and i didnt understand that! until later (i didnt understand this until organic chemistry actually), i was like ohhh i have to do more problems. nobody told me all this i dunno
its the abstract-ish creative-out of the box thinking problems that are the ones that are like the goal, like they're doing it here: https://ocw.mit.edu/courses/18-02-multivariable-calculus-fall-2007/pages/assignments/ so i can feed this into claude and ask it to bring it up as im doing the txtbook problems, once it thinks im ready for those. bc i remember from calc 2 for engineers, we had recitation where we had to solve those kinds of problems like in a group or something and talk about it. and there i was like, "ohh i didnt understand this before but now i do" etc. but i can do that with claude, have a back and forth. im such a nerd idc. i never thought i was dumb, i just didnt understand why i was getting like a 20/100 on the exams when i studied so much, like its very frustrating
i heard ppl say that the mit opencourseware for linear algebra is very good, but i remember i didnt need to watch it bc it was taught pretty well at rutgers, like it was good enough.
im going to watch 2 lectures as review then go to sleep then i do the same thing again and again until wednesday, everyday no breaks.
this class like requires: linear algebra, physics and all math until calc 2, it's pretty interesting to see it pull things out from different classes and connect it, i dunno.
got my response GOING TO SLEEP ill watch those lectures tomorrow instead.
- i have to make a russian manicure appt for next week bc of the wedding i have to go to next next weekend, maybe they open at like 11 am and i have so much to do today, super busy
ohh hes getting bigger, hes got a song with haifa wehbe now https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dMtuWwGXU08 i play his music in the car with when im with my mom lol ok back to studying
- going to get this and put it on my macbook air https://www.etsy.com/listing/1685439411/the-interview-james-franco-hate-us-cause
im so tired im going to go to sleep early, then wake up early, to do more hw, yay! T_T honestly
busyyy 📚
when im not busy ill make u laugh, i thought of some things but -> back burner rn, too busy
ill tell u a story as i take another break. i was going out to get coffee from wawa earlier and as i was pulling out of the drive way, this (oncoming) CAR wouldnt wait for me, kept creeping up, i needed to turn my steering wheel to get on the street from the driveway, like just be patient, give me 2 secs and i have the right of way rn, they came after me, and its never a crowded street and its an upper middle class town, its a chill sunday in the summer, like fking relax right?? they kept creeping up like so my windows were down bc its hot and my ac was on, so i honked at them to chill out, and they didnt so when they passed me, it was a woman in a nurses outfit with her window down, we both showed each other the middle finger and drove past each other like it was nothing, fking stupid right?? if u dunno what ure doing, u frustrate urself and others. but ppl on tiktok say, like when its a hot day, stay inside bc ppl are crazy, like the heat makes ppl crazy. anyway, what my dad didnt like about my telling him of that story is that, that woman knows where i live but i was like she was wearing a nurses outfit i dunno, like what is she going to do. w/e, another day in nj. in her story, shes "right" but i had the right of way bc i was pulling of my drive way before she showed up. idiot. i wish i was wearing sunglasses, bc thats when it really STINGS (like it gets ingrained in ur memory) when u show someone the middle finger while driving and they're dumb and wrong idc (bc u dont make eye contact with them bc of the sunglasses, it just bothers them for the rest of their life, that u showed them the finger without even eye contact, like im not even bothered to look at u). w/e. that was super annoying.
so busyyy