pretty tired today actually i think i have spring allergies, i love that pink skirt, its difficult to style tho bc its such a statement piece, i love that it's not red or blue, but like just bright pink, herve leger -- it was not cheap i remember i got it bc i was bored when i was at sampled haha
my face broke out after my bros wedding earlier this month -- nothing of concern, happens etc. not a big deal, not a common thing for me but happens once in awhile.
those BCBGMAXAZRIA skirts, here's my story about them. ok so i had a couple of them, and then when i started at sampled, i had to be on-site a couple days a week then i could be remote the rest of the week for the first couple of months. soo, thats pretty high level position @ that company so i couldnt wear like w/e & its industry, but i also had to sit for 8 hrs and do bioinformatics/programming/zoom meetings & like i needed to be comfortable too & i/we had eyes on us from other teams / other high level ppl bc everyone knew how important the bioinfo team was. right?? everything that was going on in the company was cc'd to our team like all the time. interesting problem to solve. so anyway, i had those skirts, they're made out of a thick stretch nylon, no zipper, i use to wear those sometimes and i was comfortable for 8 hrs sitting etc. to this day, i collect them. not the pattens but the solid colors. the black one i have i use to wear it often with leggings, bc otherwise, on my remote days, i would work from my bed lol bahahahaahaa, there were a lot of long-time ex-merck and ex-bms ppl there and etc. bc nj has the most amount of pharmaceutical companies than any other state. u couldnt look like sht bc u represent someone who is handling clinical sequencing samples etc. we had a whole tutorial they would do every yr or every 6 months, like the correct way to write in official docs was to use a black pen and strike out ur mistake with one line etc. things like that. i dunno whats this concept called, where u put a lot of thought in to something @ the start, so u dont have to put almost any thought in to it later, i collect those skirts every so often to this day.
atleast once i was the lead on changing clinical legacy code, i dont remember if it was sequencing or microarray, but i changed it, it was python i remember, but that's just the first step. then i had to go onsite and print out this change - code document (like 10+ pages) with screenshots of the before & after the changes of my code and how it effected the output, write in with black pen, the summary, and then get it signed by this non-bioinfo but important person who was watching me lol, i had to go back and forth many times to their office bc i had to write more info etc or i needed more screenshots, like the whole day was spent doing that. but thats the thing. u cant be some weak dweeb programmer on the side in a lab, which is what my undergrad research advisor use to drill in my head, like u need to interact with ppl/present urself well and with confidence too. also anyone who thinks u can vibe code in bioinformatics has no idea what theyre talking about. thats right, once my mom, i think it was 3rd yr, caught me going to class @ rutgers once, in something she didnt like, and she said something i still remember to this day, she said "you can do all that computer science stuff, that's fine, it's great, but you can't dress like those people, u cant look like a geek" theres so much wisdom behind that, as ive gotten older, i think that stereotype of a programmer dressing in like walmart plaid shirts etc, with no presentation/social skills, spends too much time on reddit/video games etc, that kind of a person in a lab/company, i think that is someone who is resentful easily of other ppl's success, i think that. i remember once in undergrad in lab, in that algae lab, the PI once jokingly/politely pointed out that, maybe, just maybe, its not the best idea for me, someone who was writing serious R/Bioconductor code, working on sequencing data and it was suppose to all be part of a paper, that maybe, just maybe, i should not wear bright pink sweatpants to lab that said "victoria's secret" ROTFL i did that a few times before it was pointed out to me hahahaha
ohh herf derf, this hobby of mine, the only thing i do, spend time on reddit and play video games nonstop after work, ohhh i wonder why ppl at work dont think im interesting or like me or why im not doing better than other ppl (including women) -- yeah, i dunno get better hobbies (like read non-fiction) and fking present urself well & have social skills, like r u going to learn how to do that while being in ur basement and reading/posting on reddit all day or playing video games. i cant stand that sht & i stay away from those kinds of ppl at work. they get resentful very quickly, their thing is "im putting in the same number of hrs as this other person, and im not better than them" yeah well, get better hobbies. thats on you, not on me. my other pet peeve is someone (esp at work) who is like a "foodie" like sht the fk up, that's not a real hobby, that's not a flex. there are plenty of tiktoks ppl have made where essentially they're saying, there are ppl @ work, where from the hours of 9 am - 5 pm (etc), they're "somebody" and then after 5 pm, they log off, and they're losers, and those ppl can be really dangerous.
i profile ppl while driving bc my dad said, when he was teaching me to drive in hs, that ~ "whenever u see someone in front of you driving like a little crazy, change ur lanes and pass that person, its not worth it to take a risk" right? like recognize ur safety could be at risk and get out of that situation asap. i profile ppl at work, like LOL once this person (bioinfo/comp bio) who was giving recs to someone else about restaurants in nyc (bc they lived in nyc), eventually TURNED THEIR BACK towards me (bc they were sitting next to me), bc i had nyc restaurant recs for that person too. its not rocket science to be a "foodie" LOL get a better hobby hahaha, then i knew, ok, when i have work-related questions with that person, just watch out for that person, say extra "lols" or something etc.
actually, why dont i say it. ive seen some tiktoks ppl make where they said, like if u are a put together woman @ work, u have to be a little bit of a people pleaser, bc there are ppl that will put u under extra scrutiny, bc ure doing better than them. it's like a whole game, u have to be "fake nice" to ppl at work that are, honestly, losers outside of work. its a stupid game. i wasn't going to be "fake nice" to paul wang, in fact, i reported him multiple times to penn's hr hahahaha idc, and im not around ppl like that anymore at work, i think that's what they wanted me to do, essentially comply to their bullsht and be nice to them, and i wasnt hahahahahahaa
biggest pet peeve about anyone (esp @ work): a "foodie" that's not a "real" hobby, like go read eric schlosser ure just some sheep hahahahahaa and this hobby of being a "foodie" like ure replaced by AI and/or GLP hahaha giving restaurant recs in nyc rotfl like who cares.
yeah here's a REAL hobby: 1. get a fking library card 2. ummm go to ur public library (free & open to anyone), walk around and pick out some books about skills u should learn/know about even something simple as writing better. i do this, i've done this since middle school, hs, undergrad etc. video games/reddit (granted there are useful subreddits, but with caution)/being a foodie doesnt make u a competitive or interesting/cultured person -- and now u're left behind and will become resentful of others. ok. i have things to do.
thats my new-ish life rule, i.e. "this person is a loser outside of work, be fake nice to them & watch out for them." and i'd like to add "they should not know anything about you outside of work"
with that, just remember about jason: from the hours of 9 am to 5 pm (etc), he's a "somebody" dept chair or whatever, but after he logs off, walks through the supermarket, airport etc. he's a nobody. nobody looks at him once in public, nobody looks at him twice in public. he's a loser outside of work. (well @ work too)
those ppl at sampled that were long time senior ppl at merck or bms and etc. (10 - 20 yrs) dont know python, dont know prolly what DNA even is, right? but theyre walking around that huge office building and they know immediately ur potential/how hard u work at that company based on how ure dressed and communicate (write & speak & present). and ure not going to impress those ppl if ure someone who is a foodie/reddit person/play video games. that's the big thing i learned there which i already knew. if we end up doing this oreilly book that i talked about in my personal statement, id write that somewhere, honestly i would.
omg haha i dont drink but ive noticed since hs, that when i say to someone, i dont drink, but for that person, their hobby outside of work is alcohol, they take it so personally sometimes, get obsessed. like what's the flex there? its a substance that ppl get really addicted to and it ruins lives (i.e. drunk driving) so idc about it. why r u mad, i dont get it. i have better things to do with my life. ive had friends in hs who said "u end up shtting blood" and it "destroys ur neurons" ok then what's the flex?? i still dont get it and idc.
> those ppl at sampled that were long time senior ppl at merck or bms and etc. (10 - 20 yrs) dont know python, dont know prolly what DNA even is, right? but theyre walking around that huge office building and they know immediately ur potential/how hard u work at that company based on how ure dressed and communicate (write & speak & present). and ure not going to impress those ppl if ure someone who is a foodie/reddit person/play video games. that's the big thing i learned there which i already knew. if we end up doing this oreilly book that i talked about in my personal statement, id write that somewhere, honestly i would.
on this topic, for taking someone on that is/has worked at merck or bms etc. for 10-20 yrs. to impress them with n o m i a l, there's a certain language they speak in terms of understanding if ure worth their time: how u present ur self, communicate/speak/write etc. its not a generation gap either, young ppl pick this up and do it well too imo.
and that day i had to be on-site for sampled, sure, day 1 was me in my bed working on python code in literally pjs hahaha, changing clinical legacy code. sure. but day two when i was on-site, that person who had to sign-off on that change code document, was not judging my python code (bc they dunno python or prolly even excel that much). they were judging my ability to fill out that 10-page document with my screenshots and hand written explainations with black pen & how i presented/represented myself. that was their domain that they were a master of.
what those penn hr ppl got me on, bc they had NO IDEA what was going on LOL, but they got me on, my walking into the bioinfo core at 10:05 am and not 10:00 am (bc i had my work hrs changed to 10 am to 6 pm bc of the traffic). ROTFL and i still remember thinking, "yeah, no, id not wake up even 5 mins before work to walk in to this sht show" i would shower before work tho which i am sure ppl i worked with did not even do. its a stupid thing to judge someone coming into work 5 mins late bc like with remote work, at sampled, we started at 9:15 am. and at m s k u could log off for the day once ure done with ur work. so yeah, none of that was ever important. still makes me laugh tho hahahaha
